My heart is so heavy as I write this. John and I went in for our ultrasound this morning but there was no baby to be seen. We are devastated. Thank you so much for praying for us this morning. It was my biggest fear that we wouldn't see a baby on the screen and it is almost impossible to believe that fear came true. I'm heartbroken.
I had another HCG blood draw done (awaiting results) and will again on Monday; hopefully we can get some more answers soon.
We welcome your continued prayers in our sorrow.
xo
Update: HCG level came back at only 38 (down from 104 at my highest draw). After speaking to a nurse the problem was most likely chromosomal with the embryo (causing him/her to stop growing early on) although we cannot know for sure. Thankful to not be dealing with an ectopic pregnancy. We appreciate prayers for wisdom as we figure out how to move forward building our family.
I had another HCG blood draw done (awaiting results) and will again on Monday; hopefully we can get some more answers soon.
We welcome your continued prayers in our sorrow.
xo
Update: HCG level came back at only 38 (down from 104 at my highest draw). After speaking to a nurse the problem was most likely chromosomal with the embryo (causing him/her to stop growing early on) although we cannot know for sure. Thankful to not be dealing with an ectopic pregnancy. We appreciate prayers for wisdom as we figure out how to move forward building our family.
Jill,
ReplyDeleteMy heart is absolutely breaking for you and your family. I will never understand why God tests our faith so many times.
Please reach out if there is anything that I can do for your family. You know where to find me :)
I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I'll be praying for answers and peace for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, Jill. We are praying for you all.
ReplyDeletepraying for you
ReplyDeleteI've been in these shoes. I'm so terribly sorry. :-(
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. Saying a prayer for your family right now.
ReplyDeleteSo incredibly sorry.
ReplyDeleteI.am.SO.sorry.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your heartbreaking loss! Doing lots of praying for you guys!
ReplyDeleteWeeping with you, Jill.
ReplyDeleteso so sorry for your loss. Praying for all three of you, may you feel a peace that passes all understanding during this time. May the Lord reveal to you your next step in growing your family!
ReplyDeleteI have experienced this same kind of appointment and my heart aches for your family. My hugs and prayers
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry friend. sending you lots of good vibes
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry friend. sending you lots of good vibes
ReplyDeleteJillian and John, my prayers are with you - I'm so very sorry to hear
ReplyDeleteOh no! I'm so so sorry. Thinking & praying for you as you grieve.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry ;(
ReplyDeleteSterkte.
ReplyDeletePraying for you.
I am so sorry you are experiencing this loss. Praying for you.
ReplyDeleteHurting and weeping with you.
ReplyDeleteOh Jillian, I am so very sorry. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers for sure.
ReplyDeleteOh Jillian, I am so very sorry. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers for sure.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this. I pray that you will be able to feel the peace that passes all understanding.
ReplyDelete<3 Love to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteThe burden of Infertility is a tough one (understatement) to carry. My stomach dropped when I saw your instagram post. I am hurting alongside you. I have been the recipient of devastating news and it physically hurts my heart when I hear of someone else living that nightmare. It's a deep pain I do not wish on anyone. Praying for you to find the strength to live out His plan-- whatever that may be. So so SOOOO very sorry.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so, very sorry. :(
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry Jillian.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking for you, as I know the devastation of that news, as I received it twice. But four was the lucky number for me and number four turned into a healthy baby boy. Don't give up yet! But take time to get over the shock.
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ReplyDeleteI also struggle with infertility and have been drawing strength from your blog. I have admired your faith and reliance on God during the darkest times.
ReplyDeleteI had a similar appointment in January and know the pain. When I saw your blog post my heart started beating fast and my stomach dropped. I'm so terrible sorry. Will be praying for you and your family.
Oh momma, my heart sank reading this. :'(
ReplyDeletemy heart broke when I read this... keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
ReplyDeleteThis is such sad news, I'm so sorry. There are no words I can say. I will be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. So very sorry. Words can't even begin ... Praying for you.
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