Embryo Transfer Results

With a very heavy heart I share that I am not pregnant. I went for my blood test this morning and it was negative.

John and I are heartbroken.  At the same time we are so thankful for the support and love we have been shown. We take comfort in knowing we do not walk alone. We also thank God as we believe those two babies are now in his presence.

We have two remaining embryos frozen for us. We will have an appointment with Dr. Colbert in a few weeks to talk about our next steps. I talked briefly with a nurse today and she said their transfer slots are filled through January so our next transfer will likely be in February. I'll know more after our appointment.

Thank you so much for all your support and prayers as we grieve this loss.  

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; 
perplexed, but not in despair;
persecuted, but not abandoned; 
struck down, but not destroyed. 

We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you (2 Corinthians 4:8-12). 

May the life of Jesus be revealed in my body, even now. 



  1. sending hugs & healing thoughts your way!

  2. Anonymous11/10/2014

    I am so sorry,
    I am crying and praying for you.

  3. Oh Jillian, I am so so sorry. I was really hoping that you would be sharing good news this week. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as you go through this loss.

  4. I am so very sorry to hear the news. I was praying all weekend for your family. Prayers now for God's comfort and peace during your time of grief and healing.

  5. Kristen Evenhouse11/10/2014

    Jillian and John, I am so very sorry. I wish I had some great words of healing. But I am sending prayers your way for comfort during this hard road and prayers of hopefulness for your future. As someone who also struggled to get pregnant, I empathize with your pain and fear.

  6. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. Praying for comfort and peace and for gentleness to surround your family.

  8. Anonymous11/10/2014

    It sucks to loose a baby, not to mention two. I am so sorry.

  9. Oh my heart is heavy for you. I am so sorry for this loss. I pray that you find comfort in knowing the Lord used your body to bring these precious souls into His presence. Hang in there friend. ::big hug::

  10. Samantha Baumann11/10/2014

    My heart is aching for both of you. Prayers for peace and comfort during this very difficult time, and prayers for light in the road ahead.

  11. Praying for your sweet family...

    1. Katie K11/10/2014

      So sorry to hear this news. I've been there a few times myself and know it is heartbreaking. No word will truly help . . . just keep moving. Prayers to you all.

  12. Anonymous11/10/2014

    I am so sorry to hear your results. I have been where you are (with five embryos in three transfers) and I know too well how painful this is. As a Christian myself, it is not easy to understand these losses, when everything seems so right and preordained. I have been reading your blog for about 5 months and am waiting on an adoption right now. The strength and deep faith that you have has been an encouragement to me many times as I read your words and enjoyed walking through your experiences. I will pray for peace for you and your husband as you continue to trust in Him and move forward to your next transfer. The Lord is faithful. Ali, in Alberta, Canada

  13. I am so very sorry to hear that Jillian. My thoughts are with you and your family as you grieve this loss.

  14. I'm so, so sorry to hear this. What a huge disappointment (which I'm sure doesn't begin to describe how you're feeling). We'll be praying for you guys as you continue on your journey. Personally, I feel like sometimes God just doesn't make sense. Sigh.

  15. I know the pain of this type of loss. I'm so sorry. Praying for peace, comfort, and renewed hope.

  16. Anonymous11/10/2014

    My heart aches for you, I'm so sorry you are going through this. Continued thoughts & prayers for you & your family.

  17. I know this crushing pain well and I am so, so sorry that you are now going through it. If it is any comfort, I too went through two transfers that did not take. The third did take, but I lost the baby at 12 weeks and then number four. Well number four is now asleep in bed and is almost 9 years old. Don't give up hope, because you just never know when it will work.

  18. Anonymous11/10/2014

    I'm so sorry. Praying for you, Crystal M.

  19. I'm so very sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers.

  20. So sorry for your losses. We are praying for you and your family.

  21. Anonymous11/11/2014

    Heart broken for you and holding you in Light. Em xx

  22. Oh Jillian. I'm not sure how I missed this a few days ago......

    I know what you are feeling, exactly. And I'm so sorry that you are going through it. Weeping with you.

  23. I know that the hurt you're feeling isn't anything that a sorry can help, but I pray from the bottom of my heart that you and your family find peace in the masters arms during this time. I know that he has a special blessing and miracle that he's working on right now just for you and your family! You're in my hearts and prayers! Love, Jordan

  24. Sending our hugs, prayers and love. We miss you guys. May God grant you everything you stand in need of at this difficult time.


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