10/18/12

Once you were fatherless, but now...

How cute is that little tongue?? :-)

One month from today we will have our little man.

We will drive to the baby home for the last time,
sign in at the front door for the last time,
shake the director's hand for the last time,
take off those communal clothes our little man's been wearing for the last time.

We'll dress him up in the outfit we so carefully picked out just for that day.
We'll roll up his pant legs which I'm sure will still be too long.
We'll zip up his brand new winter coat and slip warm mittens onto his little hands.
We'll walk out those heavy metal doors,
down the cement steps,
and outside the black gate.

We'll climb all three of into the backseat of the car.
And we'll drive away, forever.

The words on the chapter in our little man's life-without-a-family, all written. Finished.
The proverbial page, turned.
A thousand empty pages waiting to be filled with a hope and a future.

A year ago I found this one couple who had chronicled their Russian adoption journey via youtube videos.  The video of this couple leaving the orphanage with their little boy for the last time contains one incredible, poignant moment: as they head down the staircase to leave the baby home, their translator tells them to open the door and bright, white light from outside floods into the dark hallway.

"The door to the world.  To a new life."  she says.

And in the background of the video, a song with these lyrics:

Sin has lost it's power,
Death has lost it's sting.
From the grave you've risen

Victoriously!
Into marvelous light I'm running...


This moment- this moment of leaving the old and starting the new- this is the picture of salvation. In my son's story, I see my own.  I see my rescue.  I see my ransom.  I see the life I've been given, the gift of the Father.  For I was once fatherless, but now I am a child of God.

When John and I walk through those orphanage doors with our son in our arms, we will be living in a moment we'll remember forever.  A moment that will forever cause us to worship.  A moment made of new clothes, and footsteps on tile floors, and the weight of a child in arms, and cold winter air, and three in the back seat....

but mostly it will be a moment made of grace.

Through the door.  To a new life.  Into marvelous light.

This is all of our story, who know the Lord.  Once we were not a people, but now we are God's people.

One month to begin a story that has been written for all eternity.  Praise the Lord.

xo

PS: You really should watch the video I reference above.  It might just be my adoption hormones saying this, but a tissue could come in handy.



22 comments:

  1. One of my favorite worship songs. :-)

    Counting down the days with you and praying for peace in your soul as you continue to wait!

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    1. Thank you for your prayers; God is answering them abundantly!

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  2. Anonymous10/18/2012

    I so hope you will get your adoption on film and share! We are all so excited to see you all finally together forever!

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    1. Thank you! We are going back and forth about whether we should take pictures or record it b/c we can only do one! Still deciding :-)

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    2. Anonymous10/22/2012

      You do know that if you flim it, you can take still shots from the video! just a little helpful hint, but either way im getting excited for his "gotcha" day!

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  3. Oh, that is such a wonderful video - thank you for sharing! That is such a beautiful truth, that we were once orphans ourselves, everyone, but we are lovingly adopted into God's family!! I am enjoying seeing your adoption journey and I will continue to watch and pray for you guys! We are embarking on what may be our adoption journey as well:).

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    1. I agree with everything you said! Thank you for your prayers!

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  4. Oh I am crying! That was such a wonderful video. Thank you so much for sharing.

    This is such a wonderful, heart felt post. Congratulations again!

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    1. Thanks lady!! I can't wait to be crying like that for you!

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  5. What beautiful words! One month isn't far away, I hope the time goes by super fast for you both.

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    1. Thank you! I can hardly believe the first week is already over. crazy! Exciting!

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  6. I love the video! Are you planning to record yours? I'd love to see it. I'm so excited for you!

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    1. Thank you! I can't decide about taking pictures vs. recording because we can only do one or the other on our camera. Still going back and forth!

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  7. Cried & cried at that video. Really made YOUR story more real to me. Found you months ago via Pinterest and now you are SO CLOSE to getting your little man home! Prayers & virtual hugs from WA state.

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    1. Aimee I'm so glad you've continued to follow our story! That video makes it more real for us too!! Thank you for your prayers and hugs!

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  8. Jillian, it was so great to meet you & John today! :) I will continue to follow your story and pray for you! God bless!

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    1. Janna it was wonderful to meet you today as well! Thank you for all your warm words and encouragement! It was so fun to see how excited you are for us!

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  9. OH what wonderful memories your post brings! We were where you are now 8 months ago. Trying to cram it all it. Lists of lists. Shopping, packing, ticking days off the calendar.

    Go with it. Take photos with BOTH your mind and your camera. It will be your happiest memory for forever. In our case, I think we were there a total of 20 minutes. It was both a case of them rushing us out, and our wanting to grab him and run for the door. Run to safety before something could go awry. I think my heart was pounding so hard I could hardly hear anything. Don't forget the photos of him with the groupa and the caregivers. He'll want those later.

    Our son spoke for the very first time in the car (at 22 months). That's when we cried.
    Happy almost happily ever after!

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    1. LOVE THIS! IT is so good to hear from those who have gone before us. I know what you mean about just wanting to run away with him before something could go wrong. Since our court date I feel like I'm breathing again but still shallow breath- can't wait until I can take that deep huge SIGH and know he's ours forever. What a day that will be!

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    2. I cried when we landed in Seoul, that was the nearest country where I knew that if all H broke loose they would work with our embassy to get us home. That's also the first full breath we took. But it's a huge sigh of relief when he's in your arms.
      The American flag will mean SO much more to you now. Cherish it all! It goes too (and at the same time not enough) fast.

      It's a beautiful thing this journey. Worth every single second of the process.

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  10. How wonderful! We just traveled to bring our daughter home from Taiwan! We arrived home on Father's Day of this year. Soak up every single second, it will go by faster than you think!

    Lots of pictures, lots of journaling!! So so happy for you three!!

    I would love it if you would be interested in guest posting sometime during the month of November. I am trying to feature different adoptive families for National Adoption Awareness Month. Let me know if you are interested.

    You can email me at tarafraser@overwhelmedbyjoy.com

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    1. Hi Tara! Congrats on your daughter! So exciting. I am going to email you!

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